When i was in first grade of junior school at SMAN 4 Cirebon, i felt in love with someone. She is Dwi Agustiyani, but I never talk to her. I don't know why but just felt like i don't have any deserve to her. She is very cute, bright in my eyes, or else i just like her. But it's so pure i think. The other man or in my past, i just like someone girl with her body, or my feeling mixed with lust. Yeah.
But that day is different, i really like her, mmm..... love her. Yeah, she has a great face i think, ever guys like her.
Then when i felt i didn't have deserve to be hers, i try to closed with someone else name Resa, she is a tall and slim girl, and have a unique face. I just gathered round with her and suspected by other friend that i like her. But it's not. I just like Dwi at all.
Someday there was a trip to visit my friend that lost her father, i chose to pick up Resa. But my heart still in Dwi. It was so hurt to lie to my heart. But i just walk away, didn't know bad things happened. Everyone included Dwi saw me go with her.
Couple days later, i came to school normally. Suddenly best Friend of Dwi, Desi and Desty blocked my way to class. Then they began say something, "are you interested with Dwi?". "What is this? I don't get what you mean." They force me to say yes, then i say yes, i'd rather like Dwi than Resa. But i just said that i like her normally.
What happened next? They said words that have teared my heart into pieces. One of both say, "Dwi likes you! Would you wanna say the truth that you like her?" I'm drowned, i just couldn't said something. I just fell this world began to fall. It' suck. I'm too far with Resa, and it's impossibble too going with Resa, it was too risk. I dont wanna make Dwi felt down with my condition. "She was crying in the car when saw you with Resa," continued them. I couldn't stand of it anymore. Then i just left them behind with no word.
I see her face singing 'Bunda' song beautifully in front of class. I couldn;t keep my tears going down. The biggest creature even compared with universe, TIME freezing up. I want to hear that song from her every time.
Day by day left, there's a rumor that Dwi had have a boyfriend. Me, with my whole arrogant attitude give away my love words to someone i even don't care. Instead i have planned that i'll be in love with her. She is Kiki Puspitasari, and i can't keep it going for just one and a half month. I LIE to her,whatever i say is bullshit t her. I'm so sorry. And after broke up with Kiki, i wondered,' why i didn't make it sure?'.
Eventually i went to Dwi's best friend and asked about her and the answer was, "you're not well right, she's up for you!". After heard about that i know that first thing i saw afterlife is HELL.
This moron have his lesson, 4 years Dwi's shadowing me. And i learn someday i have to say that I LOVE YOU Dwi Agustiyani, or I USED TO. And everytime i like to someone i would like to tell them the truth.
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